untitled.

its 1.30am and i still don't want to get in bed for some sleep.

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i was going through my bookshelf looking for something that would spark up my interest in this middle of night. in the end, i ended up scrolling across several new blank notebooks, amongst them i found one very old and forgotten journal that i once used as a diary. it was blue with cartoonish bullet trains on the cover and it straight away kicked me in to remember that this book recorded my journey and experience in Japan when i was in high school.


i read it. scrolling from page to page and skimming through time that brought back so much memories. good and bad. looking back to that diary in which i desperately put down all my thoughts and events during the 2 week exchange program made me chuckle a bit. firstly, i wrote that diary after completing year 11 japanese, so technically the whole diary was full of what one would consider as broken-japanese with poor level of expressions. i mean, no point arguing about that because that was why i went on that program, just to improve my japanese. lol it is in fact quite funny how i recorded my days in Japan, not leaving out any fine detail and in some cases, some personal thoughts that were so redundant.. that i would now keep telling myself several times in the head that i got the point.



it made me rethink about the whole experience in these sloppy pages of my written thoughts, whether the whole journey was worth it. i embarked on this journey with a whole bunch of people who had no clue how the world outside would see us; i embarked on this journey full with excitement and exuberance, not knowing that life could be that unexpected, leading myself to dismays and conflicts with people of different cultures. frankly i was that immature and naive when this all happened.

what happened has happened, you can't change the past but you can change the way you see it. i see this as one of the major steps towards maturity in my life. it made me reflect on myself and how to learn to perceive the world outside my narrow box when i was 17.

3 years had past and these fractured memories still remain deep in my mind. i sometimes yearn desperately to forget them... but i ended up puncturing them deeper and deeper.

untitled.

don't know why i'm feeling a bit depressed now.

not because i have work the whole day in mind tomorrow, but knowing a couple of staffs will be leaving my workplace make me feel this way. though i do not know them really well, occasional conversations and acknowledging them being there around you at work just means quite a lot. it just feels like they have been part of your life and when they decide to leave, part of yourself kinda drifts away too, along with them.

well that's life isn't it? :(

it's novemberrr.

i'm officially done now. no uni. no study. no stress.

endless freedom has finally arrived. :)

i still couldn't forget that moment when i was printing out my major assignment on friday. god it was such a mess. :/ stupid uni print. it wasn't as perfect as i wanted, but what's done is done ey. and i will not complain on how other people asked for extensions even though friday was the very final day for submission. all i hope now is that i would be able to pass that unit. lol

so what now? despite a great holiday ahead of me, i'm currently running out of ideas of keeping myself busy. couldn't meet up with friends since they are still in their exciting exam period. have to wait at most another 2 weeks or so for the others to finish. :/

i'll be working plenty of hours and still doing plenty of research on my upcoming vacations. then... exchange! :))) can't wait. i have met the other 3 students who are going to the same uni as me, but damn two of them look weird. :/ no offence. the other one looks good and i'm sure we'll bond perfectly real soon. lol

happy study guys. while i enjoy my suntan on this sunny day. :D

nearly there.

i just realised how much i have missed out not blogging for weeks since the last post. :/

so tomorrow will officially end my suffer of completing my very last major assignment from uwa and damn i'm so looking forward to that moment. can't blame anyone since i decided to allow procrastination, sleep, facebook and work dominate my life in the past few months... till now nothing has changed much except i'm starting to panic how to print 70+ pages worth of paper tomorrow at uni.

but i'll survive. ;)


i mean, i always have.

:/

the last 2 weeks of uni has officially begun. or less than 10 days to make it short. i'm looking forward to the end of this bloody semester and then endless freedom shall be mine!

i'm probably looking forward of time too much that i'm always distracted from studies. :/ having in mind that my major assignment is due soon makes it so much worse.


:/

untitled.

had been neglecting this blog for quite some time ever since i joined facebook. lol

i just realised how behind i am in my studies and i'm stressing my balls off as hell. a few more assignments and tests and i'm out of here. real soon.

i tried studying hard at this moment but i ended up like this.


guh. bless me guys.

o.o

gahhhh. don't you just hate it when there are mountains of work to do in the last week of uni?

=SS

but no one to blame in my case, since i kept taking breaks from study and now ending up rushing every single assignment.

last week for uni and then a nice long week of stressful holiday.

:)

untitled.

not sure why i couldn't be able to sleep in the past few days. so much going through my mind at the moment. not about studies but about the plans i have for next year. there seems like a lot to do in preparation for next year and it's gonna be BIG!

well for now, take some rest and allow my swelling throat to heal.